Social Phobia
Mood Rating: 5/10
Yesterday Ann came to visit me to discuss how we're going to tackle my social phobia. She discovered just how self-conscious I am, and we spoke about the possibility of me getting promoted at work. This would entail a trip to London once a month, so we're going to work on travelling on public transport in case I get the job. I'm going to meet her in town next week for a coffee. We'll work up to supermarkets at a later date.
It's pretty sad, but I discovered that I actually don't really know what's acceptable in the big wide world anymore. For instance, I haven't a clue whether it's the done thing for people to grab a coffee on their own and read a book. This makes me panic because I don't want to look out of place. I've hidden myself away from the world for so long that I no longer know what's what.
I'm quite looking forward to tackling this as it will make me feel a bit more 'normal'. It'd be nice to be able to pop into town on my own to get a present, for instance, without having to wait for a time when someone else is free to accompany me.
Tomorrow I'm going to start Weight Watchers. I think I'll be going to that alone as my friend hasn't got back to me. I don't want to go alone, but I desperately want to lose weight - again, to help me feel more 'normal'.
My mood hasn't been that great this week. I don't think I've risen above a 5. If it carries on, I'll have to visit my GP again. I guess they could up my medication, but I don't really know for sure.
Hubby's out today so I think I'll go and catch some sun to cheer myself up.
Yesterday Ann came to visit me to discuss how we're going to tackle my social phobia. She discovered just how self-conscious I am, and we spoke about the possibility of me getting promoted at work. This would entail a trip to London once a month, so we're going to work on travelling on public transport in case I get the job. I'm going to meet her in town next week for a coffee. We'll work up to supermarkets at a later date.
It's pretty sad, but I discovered that I actually don't really know what's acceptable in the big wide world anymore. For instance, I haven't a clue whether it's the done thing for people to grab a coffee on their own and read a book. This makes me panic because I don't want to look out of place. I've hidden myself away from the world for so long that I no longer know what's what.
I'm quite looking forward to tackling this as it will make me feel a bit more 'normal'. It'd be nice to be able to pop into town on my own to get a present, for instance, without having to wait for a time when someone else is free to accompany me.
Tomorrow I'm going to start Weight Watchers. I think I'll be going to that alone as my friend hasn't got back to me. I don't want to go alone, but I desperately want to lose weight - again, to help me feel more 'normal'.
My mood hasn't been that great this week. I don't think I've risen above a 5. If it carries on, I'll have to visit my GP again. I guess they could up my medication, but I don't really know for sure.
Hubby's out today so I think I'll go and catch some sun to cheer myself up.
posted by Bipolar Bear at 11:40 am
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